The meanderings of the mind

I don’t even know what that means. Random shit just pops into my mind.

Sometimes I feel super cool, and sometimes I feel like a hot mess. Sometimes  I feel really lucky and sometimes I realize that luck has nothing to do with life. You make your own luck, you send out good things and bring good things your way.  I love God, when I feel alone, I know I’m not.

and The Shins begin to play.

Much love, Liliana

Sunday Funday

Turned out to be bad news for Monday. I really dislike feeling like a walking zombie at work. The day is almost over and it can’t come soon enough, this girl needs a break.

I was supposed to go to boot camp, but my sister is coming up and my pre-gym plans got cancelled so I am forced to cancel my boot camp plans. I can’t help feeling a bit frazzled by my new plans. I think someone wise would say that one must learn to go wit h the flow.

 

 

Just Keep Chewing.

I’ve missed you terribly. I miss having this electronic version of a half-diary where I can spill all or most of my secrets.

I hate apples and I just consumed a rather large apple. I remember the days when apples were eaten because they were tasty, now I just think of the fiber content and fat content. Maybe I can find another fruit with such fiber, there’s plenty out there I know.

A month into being thirty doesn’t feel miserable, I’ve actually accomplished to get back into working out. I’m seeing itty bitty tiny results and I am enjoying them.

Too much uneventful and eventful things have occurred while I was away in no-blogging land.

The second dumbest thing I did is open the box of Pandora, aka Ry. I became a bit tipsy and called him, well text him and like he ALWAYS  does, he wrote back. I think he likes the attention. I feel like we keep having the same conversation. He wants kids, his gf doesn’t,  I offer up my uterus, ect.  ( I was tipsy, ok.) Amongst other things we talk about her being the one or not and our conversations go in circles. He’s really selfcentered and polite.  I wish I had a Ry off  button, because I cannot quit contacting him, I told him I loved him, and when I told my friend J.Rabbit about it, she was shocked, I told her, ” I’m tipsy so it just means like.” I think I like the attention he gave me, but love him I do not.

I’m still fighting the fatty in me. Jonah Hill lost forty pounds, I want to one up him and lose fifty.

I feel so much better unloading these random thoughts.

BEsos,

Liliana

Official.

The day is finally here. I am THIRTY. No, not dirty THIRTY. Not Thiry, flirting and thriving either, but a nice Thirty, healthy and growing. 🙂

I’m not in the shape that I wanna be in but I’m healthy.

I’ve stopped using my credit card.

I’m very enthused about life, and about what this new year will hold for me. Instead of having goals of what I want to look like and have and be  by the time I turn thirty-one, I am going to try to do new things and live each and every day like it’s a birthday present.

This summer, I want to go swimming, spend lots of time with good friends, hit the gym up because it feels good, and make my patio look wonderful!

I have really good friends, a crazy but priceles family and a new attitude of anything is possible.

Now go live your life, I’m going to go love living mine.

Besos, Liliana

 

Flavored Cereal.

I’m almost thirty and I still enjoy childrens cereal.

I haven’t reached my weight goal, but I haven’t worked hard enough to do so.

Work has been crazy, making me skip spin classes and making me work on Saturdays, and it’s SUMMER.

I’ve decided that starting yesterday, I am enjoying every single day of summer.

I suggest you do the same, life is short, summer is shorter.

Besos,

Liliana

I Effed up.

Just when I think I have my shit together and life is nothing but pink beautiful roses, I over drink and make an epic fail of a mistake.

Like other things in life, this endless pit of regret will hopefully vanish from my life soon. I was so happy, I mean so happy. People can hurt you but I think you have the potential to hurt yourself the most.

I don’t want to be one of those negative people, I want to have a good sense of self  and a love of life. I love life, which is why I freak so much about health matters. To quote Woody Allen, ” I’ts not that I’m afraid to die, I just don’t want to be there when it happens.”

I’ll feel better, and live better too.

XOXO,

 

Liliana

It’s June.

I’ve been super lazy. I mean super D duper lazy. I don’t even know where the gym is located anymore.

On the bright side of things, I am moving to a quaint apartment complex with lots of trees and green grass.

I have come to the conclusion that I won’t be reaching any goals by thirty.. everything is easier said than done.

What can I say? I’m the girl who doesn’t say no to cake. 

Should I move my weight goal to August?

You are what you eat.

And I’m bananas!

Seriously though, I need to invest in high quality food, I’m trying to kick junk food out of my life, but it’s not working.

Decisions.

I’m pretty much in life limbo. I don’t know what to do regarding  jobs and where I want to live. I need to sit down and make some decisions, which I am terrible at making by the way. But the laws of the universe say you are what you think, so I think I am amazing and wonderful and can do anything and the perfect job will fall onto my lap very soon!

I think my plans to be amazingly awesome by  thirty are going to have to be pushed back to thirty and three months. 🙂

It’s hard to make these life decisions because although I am single, I do have other people that depend on me and I want to be there for them. Life isn’t about having huge wads of cash and lots of fame, it’s about being surrounded by good faithful people.

If I get that job in Yosemite, I will take it and be alone. A two and a half hour drive isn’t bad right?

I hope that when I’m fifty I have it all figured out.

Much love,

Liliana

McBoring

I’ve had a pretty dull week. I’m not complaining, it’s my fault. I’ve skipped the gym and my housechores and all I wanna do now is clean and go work out.

This week was a reminder that if I want an exciting, productive life, I have to go out there and live it.

There’s two really good quotes that I have been repeating to myself.

“Live in faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.” Christina D. Larson

and this one

” When nothing is sure, everything is possible.” Margaret Drabble.

I hope to make next week way more productive and enjoyable than this week.

Much love,

Liliana